Truth in Blogging

My quilt blog is exactly that -- a quilt blog.

I have political opinions, and I don't write about them here.
I have religious beliefs, and I don't write about them here.
I have problems in my life, and I don't write about them here.

My blog is about Quilts!  and Hello Kitty!  and Chocolate Cake!  I have had conversations with folks who read my blog or my FaceBook page and they really think my life is all happy, all of the time.  I am a very happy person and share my happy thoughts with you, but there is more to my life that I usually choose to keep private.

Today I am lowering the barrier between my happy blog and my real life.

A month or so ago, I found a lump.  I had a mammogram and ultrasound and these tests confirmed what I already knew.  It has been a long month of waiting and additional tests and results and answers.  I wondered, "How can I keep my mind off of this and keep on living?"  I got that answer fairly quickly in the form of food poisoning that lasted 10 days, cost me 15 pounds and required medical intervention and heavy drugs.  (This is another one of those things that I did not blog about.)  Nothing consumes the mind more than violent food poisoning.  Those were two weeks of my life that I will never get back, but I didn't have the ability to worry about my lump for two solid weeks.

I have a few other medical issues (that I don't blog about) that would make surgery and treatment very difficult.  No cancer diagnosis would be easy, and mine would be even tougher than most.

This morning, I had another ultrasound.  When the technician did my first ultrasound a month ago, I could see on her face the moment she located my lump.  She became very serious and intent.  Today, she started serious and intent and there was very little conversation.  She did her job, told me to stay put, and left the room.  She came back about 10 minutes later with a doctor who repeated the ultrasound.  The doctor told me that there was no lump.  She also told me that I must never have felt the lump in the first place (trust me, I did, and their own tests confirmed it) and that I was absolutely fine.  That is the news I was hoping for.

I thought that I would be overjoyed and elated, but in truth -- I was just relieved and exhausted.

As I was driving home from the hospital, I realized that I needed to celebrate and as you know, I always choose to celebrate with chocolate cake.

I was just going to buy a chocolate cake, but the bakery had these really cute Hello Kitty cupcakes so they followed me home, too.  I have extra cake and Hello Kitty cupcakes to share.  Will you celebrate with me?

As you can see, my life is really all Happy!  Hello Kitty!  Chocolate Cake! so my regular blogging content will now resume.